More than six years ago I made changes in my life in an effort to be healthier and lose weight. Being extremely dedicated and determined to reach those goals (It really is true: When you put your mind to it, anything is possible. But it was not easy. There is no quick trick or magic pill.), I was successful and maintained my weight loss for nearly five years. Until I got pregnant.
I had to make a conscious effort not to let the scale's growing number get to me during my pregnancy. I stayed as active as I could and resolved that whatever weight was leftover after Willa was born, I would lose with the same dedication and determination I had six years ago.
Now that I'm on the other side, I've managed to lose all but a bit of that pregnancy weight. But what I thought would be a doggedness to lose those last pounds has turned into desire to continue breastfeeding Willa as long as I can, at the expense of getting back to pre-pregnancy form.
I'm nervous enough about how long I'll be able to continue breastfeeding while working full time. I pump at work and try to get in 2-3 nursing sessions at home. I don't want to worry about how a hard focus on losing weight might deplete my supply.
Don't get me wrong. I will continue to do my best to make healthy choices and watch my portions. Not to mention being active as much as I can. (I still do Bar Method but not nearly as often as I was before Willa was born. Nursing means I don't have the time before or after work to go, but I do manage to get in a class on Saturdays.)
Willa and her needs take priority over losing the last of the pregnancy weight. And I'm okay with that as there will come a time when she no longer nurses and I can once again focus on my goal.