Holy shit, you guys. In less than a month, I am going to make a tiny human appear out of my girlie bits like magic. A tiny human that I grew using only my body (with some initial help from John). I mean one second she won't be here. And then POOF. She's there. MAGIC
Can we pause for a second to reflect on how mind-blowingly awesome that is? I mean when I look down at my belly - because that's all I see now when I look down - it is so surreal to think that all that separates the world and Nugget is some skin and tissue.
I'm definitely in the uncomfortable part of pregnancy that comes with the third trimester. More and more people have been asking me if I'm ready for her to be here. If I'm ready for it to be over. I am, and I'm not. I mean I can't wait for her to be here so I can stop wondering what she looks like, if she has John's smile, etc. But I've also enjoyed being pregnant and carrying her with me wherever I go. Some days when I'm driving to work, I stroke my stomach and talk to her in the mornings.
What I'm trying to say is that while I'd much rather she be here so we can watch her grow up and discover the world, I'm going to miss the time we've spent sharing the same body. It sounds weird when I say it out loud (especially considering how much I miss being able to do all the things I used to able to do like run) but after everything we went through last year, the last thing I wanted to do was take being pregnant for granted. And I haven't. Part of me is going to miss it. But it probably won't be long until I do reach that point of okay, Nugget... it's time to come out.
The only major thing we have left to do is get the car seat bases installed in our cars because I don't think either of us wants to have to worry about it when I'm in the hospital. There are some minor things we need to do in the nursery, like get stuff on the walls, but it's nothing that will hinder our ability to care for Nugget when she gets here.
When Nugget is here and the nursery is finished, I'll be sharing pictures. I can't show anything before she gets here because her name will be on one wall as part of a really cool craft project I'm working on. I know it's not fair to tease, but I'm so excited about it. It's turning out better than I thought it would.