Monday, February 23, 2009

Bleep bleep

When it comes to books, I'm generally not in favor of censorship as it takes away the opportunity to make up one's own mind.

So why have I noticed that I've been censoring myself for several months? In what I say aloud and in what I write here.

Perhaps it's one too times caught with my foot in my mouth. Or the fear of upsetting someone.

I don't say things with a malicious intent (okay rarely do I say something meant to cause pain), but sometimes words do hurt no matter what the intent was. A painful lesson I've learned somewhat recently.

At the same time, I feel like I'm sacrificing part of myself for fear of hurting someone's feelings. And to be honest, I don't like it. I want to be who I am without apology. Though I just need to remember that every thought I have does not need to be spoken aloud, or typed on a screen, to be true or real.

This of course potentially means the return of a sometimes sharp and biting tongue that occasionally swears as a means to get my point across. Damn straight!

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